25 June 2009

Museum Day

We took my parents to the Littleton Historical Museum.

R, Gammy, & Bam-Bam

The museum is a working farm, and also hosts exhibits. It houses artifacts from the Columbine shootings, which took place nearby.

I wasn't ready to look at them and then just move on into a regular day. I didn't have children when the shootings happened, and now I do. In the middle of a normal working day, you get the news that your child is dead. The killer is another child, a schoolmate. Maybe if I had been by myself, I would have looked more closely, and I intend to go back. I skimmed over it, I am ashamed to say, because I couldn't take it. I looked at a few photos and got a displaced and disturbing sense of things confined under glass and rearranged, that had been spontaneously placed at spots around the school. Teddy bears, plastic flowers.

My Dad was very moved by it. He started reading one letter addressed to the killers, thinking it would be an inspiring letter of forgiveness. It turned out to be an outpouring of vitriol that made him step back from the glass case in shock. He said he would never forget it. The exhibit is set up very intelligently. It asks the question, what should be preserved from tragedy, and how should it be presented?

Then you walk outside from that climate-controlled, under-glass room, where artifacts are preserved from a single day of horror that became a symbol for suburban disenfranchisement. Misery and murderous resentment, violence nurtured among the granite countertops and landscaped yards. You step outside, and there is life a hundred, a hundred and fifty, years ago. Palpable and accessible, if you stand in the fields and listen to the chickens and realize that the silence is absence of machines and traffic noise.

I wonder what it was about those farms that so moved me. I can't stop thinking about them. It might be the same old idea of prospect and refuge, what makes an appealing home, the question that made me start this blog. Inside the museum building, there was an exhibit of hooked rugs and photos and artifacts of Littleton history. A photo of workers in the early 1900s constructing wooden pipes, slab by wooden slab built up to a round shape, to move water. The amount of work to move water a few feet--staggering. But the workers looked happy and proud, straddling the pipe, their faces dirty and wet. Think of the feeling of accomplishment, for each foot of tube they laid.

There was a blown-up photo of a group of women and kids in 1903, splashing up to their knees in the Highline Canal. Maybe because the women were stripped to camisoles and petticoats, their wet hair tumbling around their faces, but they looked out at you, laughing, and any sense of "olden days" dropped away. Children splashed each other in the water and their faces were as vivid and modern as R's little school friends. I don't think I have ever seen a more lively historical photo.

The 1860s house was just a rough log cabin. Exactly what was needed to live, no more. But there was a small fenced-in yard with a well-kept garden, and the log gate opened with a welcoming creak.

There were neat rows of crockery, preserves and spices on the rough wooden shelves.
There was clean oilcloth on the table with friendly wooden chairs all around, a tidy garden, a sleeping loft up some steep and rickety stairs. The sleeping loft was the only thing that gave me an uneasy feeling. Dark, musty smelling, hairy woolen blankets on a bed that crouched in the dark. Dust motes floating past the tiny un-glassed windows carved into the logs. I thought of living in a place where animals and other people were threatening, and I would not feel safe trapped up those rickety stairs. The prospect was spectacular, but the imbalance between prospect and refuge was unsettling.

I can't forget the silence, the way the sky stretched out all around.

We definitely notice the sky more in this house than we did in our old crowded house in Denver. But standing in the middle of those animal paddocks and fields of crops on a cool June day--that is prospect. Prospect that comes with a price. Everything you see needs attention, and must be cared for with your own hands. Without your careful husbandry, your family would die. But think of the satisfaction, when you turn back and look out over your land as the sun goes down after a long day of work. Animals fed, crops tended.

Patient pregnant mare.

Those narrow wire-spring mattresses were probably as comfortable as they needed to be for people who slept the deep sleep of physical exhaustion.

By 1890, technology and the railroad had come to Colorado.

The 1890s house at the Littleton Museum is fascinating. There are houses of a similar vintage all over Denver, sturdy, filled with handmade details. Gracious and liveable. My mom liked that the 1890s house had a china cabinet with a few special things displayed behind glass. There was a flower garden surrounding the house, a comfortable kitchen with a big stove, a sunroom, a piano. We have been saving up for a piano for awhile now. The 1890s house is more civilized than ours. The china cabinet with treasures and curios reminded me of one of my favorite details in the Little House on the Prairie books when I was little, the Dresden china shepherdess that Ma carefully packed to take with her as they moved. The painted shepherdess sat on the mantel of every house they lived in, no matter how rough or wild the house and its surroundings.

Grapevines


1890s larder. William Morris wallpaper in the living room.

A very soft and civilized place to rest after a day of hard farm labor.

Looking out at the barn, from under the 1890s grape arbor.

Grand old tree.

Sun porch

The screen door off this sunporch had the most satisfying creak. The Grandma's house screen door creak, that was the most authentic detail in the whole farm.

Bedroom chair

R with her Dad and her Granddad.

24 June 2009

Mt. Olivet Cemetery

The morning after the family reunion party, my Dad and some of his family went to Mt. Olivet to visit the family graves.

R and her favorite cousin.


My great-grandparents on my Dad's side.

R and her cousin took off looking for Mary statues and hugging them. I didn't realize that my camera lens was streaked until later. I like it, it looks like a friendly spirit was there.

Trying out their new reading skills.

Catching up

It looks like I am not very good at blogging in the summer. June has been parties and houseguests and swimming and the garden, but not much of a record of any of it. I will catch up with pictures from the family reunion and visit from my mom and dad (Gammy and BamBam). In the meantime, here are two from yesterday. Her best friend from school came over to swim. We got rained out at the pool, so they came back to our house and played dressup.

07 June 2009

Rainy Day Red Balloon


A cool and rainy Sunday. The day was full of memories of our summer trips to Denver when I was little. The light in this picture is how that vanished childhood Denver looks in my dreams. I don't think it's all my imagination. It used to be greener and rainier than it is now.

New Summer Dress (hooray for the thrift store!)


Only a few more months to be five. This is a common facial expression for a five-year-old. Alert and nosy, trying to figure out what the person you're looking at is doing, and if this might be a good time to try to make them laugh.

It's always a good time.

31 May 2009

Last Day of Kindergarten!

It was fun to watch her change her uniform for a swimsuit and run through the sprinklers. No more uniform for two and a half months. Her Dad is measuring the porch railings. He's rebuilding them from the balusters on up.



Happy summer!

25 May 2009

Katie's Bowl


My generous college friend Katarina gave us this bowl for a wedding present. It is the most lovely and satisfying thing. It glows like a fat red pepper, has a delicate but substantial heft in your hands, and elevates anything you put in it or near it. I read yesterday that Michelle Obama closes a lot of doors to keep their new dog out of mischief: "We try to set him up for success." That made me laugh, because not to equate raising kids with training dogs, but that's what I do with the red bowl. It stays on a high shelf and only comes down with close supervision, because I would be broken-hearted if anything happened to it. You set them up for success, you see.

Tonight we picked spinach mustard leaves from the garden, and they deserved the red bowl. I rolled them up into cigar shapes and then cut them crosswise into strips, and sauteed them with garlic and olive oil. Sea salt and red wine vinegar and red pepper flakes just at the end. Just-picked greens taste so fresh and mineral-y and grassy. There is a salty, earthy quality that goes away when they're kept and stored.

Another surprise, our first spring in this house--there are spirea everywhere. My neighbor told me they are called bridal veil because brides used to make bridal crowns from them. I remember spirea in our house in Albuquerque when I was little. The white blossoms make perfect miniature doll bouquets.

R drew this picture today. She says it's "Daddy, Mommy, me, and the dog we are going to get some day soon. It's raining, because I love the rain and running outside to play in it." The red shape on the far right is "a mouse house. You know, a house for mouses." Behind her are all the pepper and tomato plants, hardening off before planting.

The forecast says possible hail later today, so I'll put off the tomatoes and peppers and maybe only transplant the pumpkins. They are huge in their pots, I don't think hail will bother them. D dug out a big sunny strip behind the sheds and cleared the weeds and thistles. Perfect for pumpkins and melons to grow up the fence and sprawl behind the sheds. It was so nice to wake up this morning to a cool, overcast day and D home on a Monday. He made pancakes and let me sleep in.

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